Dreams & Reality

One thing I have been pondering a lot lately, is dreams and the impact on our daily lives.

I find myself having wonderful dreams, such as being fully independent and living with my fiancé. Then I wake up  and the dreams feel real, just for a few moments before reality sinks in. I am upset for hours that the dreams aren't real, even to the point of being upset with someone else - someone who can impact on whether the dreams are real or not.

Then there are the bad dreams that feel so real I wake up thinking they are & going for days worrying about the possibility of them happening. Just the other night I had a dream that my fiancé, who works at a machine parts & repair place with just one location, transferred overseas and didn't tell me. I didn't hear from him, no replies to my messages or anything, for days and then he posted from his new location on Facebook. I woke up terrified and miserable and worried my fiancé with it.

This makes me wonder about the links between our dreams and our real-life moods & responses to other people. I will do some research and hopefully write a full story or article on the subject one day.

My Anxiety

My Anxiety

by Jacqui

It is the burning ache in my chest and throat.

It is the lump that constricts my airways

and makes it difficult to swallow.

It is the small things,

the worries over fictional characters in TV shows.

It is the big things,

the fretting over still living at home at 25,

the engagement stretching into forever.

It is everything.

It is the worry about everything that I have to do,

yet the inability to do anything.

It is my anxiety.