I never thought we would have an engagement this long, but here we are just shy of five years being engaged, with who knows how long to go. We want to get married in May 2018, but with moving out having to happen before then, and me finding a more steady job before that, it seems unlikely.
It's great I have a job now, along with my volunteering, and my health is finally stable, but there is so much to achieve, that I worry we'll never get there.
I have started my job hunt again but I feel deflated by all the criteria I do not meet.
I still struggle with my junk food addiction, and I am refocusing on it and working on it again, but it is so hard. There is so much less support and information out there for this type of addiction, unlike addictions to gambling, smoking, drugs or drinking. I just feel bummed a lot when I fall off the wagon so to speak.
I need rejuvenation and more confidence. I need to succeed and not fail...again.
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